The Search For Scarlett

Before I got pregnant I was doing this little thing called Burlesque. It was the most self-fulfilling thing I have ever done in my life. The red lipstick, the high heels, the glitter, the rhinestones, the stage, the music it all just felt....right. My stage name was Scarlett Vixen, and she was very much apart of me. I have lost her since having Tristan and having been searching for her for a long time. I miss her. Now that I have getting close to my pre-pregnancy weight, I can feel her coming out again and I just LOVE it! I can not wait to put my corset back on.

Sadly, I know Burlesque can just never be a part of my life again. My son takes up too much of my time these days, not that I can complain about that. Not to mention do you know how expensive rhinestones are?! So with a heavy heart I lay Burlesque to rest. Now I am looking for ways to intertwine Brittnie and Scarlett so that both women can live each day fully and I can be satisfied in all areas of my life. I do not want to suppress Scarlett because she is so much a part of me it would like removing my heart. But how do you take a high heel, corset, pastie wearing sensual sex Goddess and put her into our modest modern judgmental society?

That is the idea that I am exploring currently. Any ideas?

WHERE DID SHE GO?!?!

Happy Belated Anniversary To Me!!

I can not believe I missed my blog anniversary! February 9th marked the 1 year anniversary since I started my blog and boy has it been a journey. I have often contemplated changing the name of my blog to something that more fits where I am in life right now with my son but there is just something about it I really like. I feel like I have hit "dawn" and that I am living in daylight 24/7 now. That isn't because things are easier. Actually, there are things that are a lot harder. But I have been able to change the way I look at my son, the feelings I have about my son. I no longer care what certain people think or feel about my son or the way I am raising him. I could not care less about what society has to say about him. I have come to a point where I can fully embrace who he is. I have learned to take those attributes that may seem so negative to everyone else and turn them into positives. My son is thriving and this mommy could not be any more proud of who he is and whatever he will become.